Friday, May 23, 2008

Freedom!

I am wearing the same shirt today that I wore to work on Monday. This is a big step for me. Normally, I try to space out my clothes-wearing, especially if I'm wearing it to the same place. But this morning, nothing in my closet appealed to me except this shirt. I put it on and then realized, "Oh no, I wore this on Monday." But then I thought, "So? Who cares?" It's not like anyone is really going to notice, and if they do notice, what does it matter? Of course, I've known for a long time that it doesn't really matter what you wear, but I've never been able to let go of that self-consciousness before. Now I have so many more possibilities! I love not caring!

2 comments:

Kalyn Gensic said...

I am entirely imprisoned by that whole issue. I am obsessed with spacing out clothing for at least two weeks. When I was in junior high, a rich doctor's daughter made fun of me for wearing one of my shirts about once a week, and it inflamed my insecurity. It's like Elliot from Scrubs said: (paraphrased)"Every woman still has that insecure teenager inside of her."

Ledbetter Fam said...

Oh my goodness!!! I do this as well. In fact, David and I have talked about that several times lately. I mentioned something the other day about "I can't wear that, I just wore it the other day." Wade, our 8 year old, said "So what!" David had to explain to him that girls are different from boys in that they don't want to wear the same clothes twice in one week to the same place. It's funny watching them try to figure me out. I have a whole lifetime of being the only female and never being fully understood! I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one.

JB